You didn't see me lying under that bush by the river You didn't see me lying there, crying my eyes out A group of kids walked past but didn't see me Still, I felt embarrassed. I could have scared them. You didn't see me And for all it was worth I could have just not said it I wish I had a second chance You lived near but we never managed to find the time to meet up I was driving past your home on a vacation and wanted to drop by. See how you're doing. Chat and laugh. Eat cookies. But you didn't answer the phone. It was on but you didn't answer You never answered again First you couldn't speak, then your heart stopped beating. You didn't see me lying under that bush It was long before all this But I also cried for you. And for others. You didn't see me lying under that bush. But then you returned. Casually. Asking if you could be there in my life. You said you missed me. You didn't see me lying under that bush by the river I loved that river....

Life Isn't about finding yourself Or finding anything Life Is about creating yourself And creating things Tim stared into space. He was high as the clouds. All responsibilities didn't matter for a while.  He just wanted to be high. Life had been tough on him. Normal, but tough. So many questions and no answers. So many answers but no questions. So much life and so little love. Love in abundance but no one who listens. Karaoke but nobody really listening to him sing. His friend Tash asked him to join the stage so they could sing a song in Spanish. Tim didn't know the song and didn't know any Spanish. He felt humiliated. Tash said he was fat. That didn't feel nice. They got drunk on Tequilas. "Don't fall asleep in the pub", said Tash. But what did it all really matter. Tim waited many hours, wasted his time on Tash. Tash didn't love him, she only cared about herself. She never remembered anything Tim had said. I was born in Blackwood, I grew up on a ...